I went back and forth with this blog post. I could have showed you my pictures and wrote a little post on how wonderful everything is and how it appeared, however, that would be lying. I almost didn’t post the pictures at all…I just couldn’t find the words to accompany the pictures that portrayed a joyous holiday. I’ve contemplated how to approach this for several days. I don’t want to burden anyone with my problems…I want my blog to be happy and uplifting! Then after some thought, I thought it was best to just tell you the truth.
*Warning* I’ve heard that some people do not like bloggers to post anything about their personal lives (this can be a pet peeve for some people). If this is the case, feel free to skip and scroll down to the pictures.
I’ve had one heck of a November and December, to put it mildly.
I posted on Facebook in early November that I was having our staff Christmas party at my house. Well, that never happened. Unfortunately, I have had some medical issues for the past couple years and I’ve been putting off surgery for quite some time. Deciding that I suffered enough, I made the decision to have surgery right before Thanksgiving.
I was determined to make sure that the surgery would NOT keep me from having my Christmas party! I started decorating in early November with the plan that I would be finished before I went to the hospital.
As you can probably guess, I couldn’t host a Christmas party. I ended up having some complications that I never anticipated and recovery wasn’t as easy as I thought. In addition, I ended up with another medical condition that I’m currently dealing with. Needless to say, I’ve been back and forth to doctor’s appointments and also have had a home nurse make regular visits to my house. Ugh. Not fun. (In case you are wondering, I will be totally fine to head back to school on January 4th and looking forward to it!)
FAST FORWARD TO A WEEK LATER…
I decided that I should take advantage of my six weeks off and visit my grandmother as much as I could. My grandma was moved to a nursing home the day of my surgery. My family couldn’t be with me while I was in the hospital because everyone had to help her move (talk about bad timing), however, I was fine with that. I knew that my grandma needed them more than I did. I was anxious to get out of the hospital and see my grandma’s new home. I couldn’t drive for a couple weeks, but when I started to feel better, my plan was to spend my days off with her, keeping her company. With working so much, I often felt guilty that I didn’t see her enough. I was excited to have this time off to be able to spend it with her.
To make a long story short, I was finally able to see my grandmother last Sunday. I spent a couple hours with her, told her I loved her before I left, and said that I would be back the next day to see her.
She ended up dying that night.
My heart is broken. I actually feel my heart hurting.
My grandmother was a huge part of my life and was like a second mom to me. The pain almost seems unbearable right now and getting through Christmas feels like a struggle. We’ve spent the last week planning a funeral and saying goodbye to a woman that I loved more than anything.
CHRISTMAS PHOTO SHOOT…
As you can imagine, it is very difficult for me to write a blog post. My inspiration for the room and the decor seems so insignificant right now. I can’t even begin to find the words. Every time I try to write something, I start to cry. Christmas was my grandmother’s favorite holiday and everything reminds me of her.
I know that some of you have been waiting for this post, so I don’t want to disappoint anyone and I know that “the show must go on.” I made the decision to go ahead and post them. I hope my pictures can bring joy and inspiration to all of you this season. Please remember to hold your family close this Christmas! xoxo
Merry Christmas and Best Wishes
for a Happy New Year!
Curtains: Wayfair, Rug: Zulily, Candleabra: Dot and Bo, Black Sign: House of Belonging, Coffee table: Ballard Designs, Black cabinet: garage sale Birch candles on table: Save-on-Crafts, White furniture: Pottery Barn, Lamps: Pottery Barn, Black and White picture above fireplace: Pottery Barn, Pillows/throws: Pottery Barn, Curtain Rods: Meijer, Merry Christmas banner: Carriage House Designs, Howell, Michigan
Mirror: Pottery Barn, Lamps: Pottery Barn, 3-tiered metal stand: Joss and Main, Bows: Target
Black tables: The Iron Grate, Fenton, Michigan, Vase: The Weed Lady, Grand Blanc, Michigan
Flower arrangements created from fresh greenery from The Weed Lady (Grand Blanc, Michigan) and Save-on-crafts, Books: flea market
Bench: Joss and Main, Baskets: Pottery Barn Outlet, Rug: Ballard Designs, Fern pictures: collected over years, Pillows: Pottery Barn
Clarisa chandelier from Pottery Barn
Glitter initials on tree: Walmart
Plates: Pottery Barn, wicker charger: Target, Center stone urn: The Weed Lady (Grand Blanc, Michigan)
Bark vases: Joann Fabrics, tree slices: Michaels, Shutters: Ebay, White shelf: Pottery Barn Outlet
Old Barnwood shelves: Ebay, Metal brackets: Hobby Lobby, McCoy Vases: Etsy, Books: flea markets
Curtains: Pottery Barn (discontinued), Merry Christmas Banner: Pottery Barn Kids, Chandelier: Pottery Barn
Chalkboard: Etsy, Initials: Hobby Lobby, Skis: someone’s garbage, jars on coffee table: Maria Manore’s wedding (Kinder-craze blog)
Chairs: Pottery Barn (discontinued), Table: Ballard Designs
Lamp: Magnolia Market, black table: from my son’s nursery almost 19 years ago (painted and changed knobs)
Black buffet: Pottery Barn, Pinecones: The Weed Lady (Grand Blanc, Michigan)
Bells: Target, Plates: Pottery Barn, Pillows: Pottery Barn, Coffee Table: Ballard Designs
Table – Two Birds (no longer in business), Black sign: House of Belonging
(Melanie’s first Christmas with her grandma and grandpa)
Merry Christmas in Heaven, Grandma. I love you.
Photos by E’lisa Campbell from E.C. Campbell Photography in Clarkston, Michigan